The day of independence, day of freedom. What is freedom? 

I think in very simple terms, it would be getting rid of something you don't want and making way for something you want. This could be clothes, car, accessories, people, way you utilize time, and sometimes as simple as your 'thoughts'. 

We grind ourselves in thoughts that make so much sense to us, but for an outsider is so insignificant and out of context. So we may even not want to discuss these thoughts with others. There are reasons why these thoughts come and you are more often than not convinced about having them. But what if you want to be free of it and are not able to do it?

I feel there are layers and layers of different ingredients we unknowingly mix, to make up our thoughts. Some of them being- intellect, ego, self pity, fear of getting hurt, vulnerability, self portrayed image of oneself ,  so on and so forth. 

Due to either or all  of the above mentioned traits, we dont move towards that freedom. We hold back and accumulate a lot of baggage. The right- wrong, ram- raavan, ideology ingrained in us since childhood, plays a subconscious part and we behave for some third person to feel good about us!

The question at the crux is how long can you hold on? How long can you live a life in charade? They say old age is another childhood. But why then the mutual feeling of freedom not felt with every geriatric person you meet? Like age and mind have no connection, so probably does the charade and the need for freedom. 

But what if the 'Manjolika' in you gets shaken once.. What if she is in full spirit .. and its the durgashtami night?! What if all the negative energy culminates??  What if you go over the board?? The worst nightmare comes into action and you do what you would in your purest self, going against all norms and beliefs you have led your life until now. 

The fear you confront eye to eye! The pain you go through, accept the things you cant see happening, tell aloud that you are not great. Make it known that you are not always right. Let go of whatever you feared would leave you. And just be...

The Avni comes alive! - the real you. The 'you' who is sans fear, who is okay with everything, who feels one is just a being, who feels things are happening through 'me' and not by 'me'. The one for whom, there is not just right and wrong. The one who knows the difference and can see it better now. 

There is a calmness now.. there is a thoughtless phase now..  isnt that an amazing feeling?

 Wouldnt that be real freedom???


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